Honor

I was happy that you were at home last night for a change. Happy to know you went on a transport call this morning and came home again. I remember pastor saying recently to make time for God regularly and the same message came up in our Wed. morning bible study as part of the lesson for the week. I made you coffee and prayed while I waited for you to come home. Praying that God would continue to watch over you & keep you safe, change your attitude toward me & Him, continue to work in your heart to work on our friendship & help us to build a healthy happy loving relationship. I also prayed for E and G to have a safe trip and that God would work in her heart to help her change her ways and not continue to hurt & use you or others around her. I prayed that God would help her to find help & peace for her sorrows and poor choices. I prayed for Sean and all of our families, the servicemen & women, and for our community. It definitely felt good to sit and pray.Showers before breakfast always a good thing. I wasn't pleased with what you were doing while texting her before I went to get us breakfast. Again though, I'm not in control of you...but I know you know better.
I got the mail and am glad there were two new movies and a package in there from sis. Very nice card and necklace earring set. Got the valentine's card yesterday from Mom. That was pretty cool. A couple ladies at the deli stopped me and talked with me for a few minutes. One of them happens to be the wife of the firefighter that you want me to keep that dark secret of E's from. Honestly it's not my secret to keep and others know about the secret. As requested though I will honor the request of keeping it. You wanted to know why I was short with you when I got home and I said it was because I was tired..which I am..I'm tired a lot these days. Seems like I've been tired ever since the beginning of this year (if not a little longer). It's hard to take most days listening to everything and knowing everything that you share with me about her...but I'd do it all over in a heart beat again if it means somehow things with you and me will get better.
Nice to have lunch with you today too. Looking forward to having dinner and possibly playing monopoly with you later too. Hopefully it works out for just you and me to do dinner & play monopoly. Hopefully we have fun too!
Day 15-Love Is Honorable
"Live with your wives in an understanding way...and show her honor as a fellow heir of the grace of life." 1 Peter 3:7
Today's dare: "Choose a way to show honor and respect to your spouse that is above your normal routine. It may be holding the door for her. It might be putting his clothes away for him. It may be the way you listen and speak in your communication. Show your mate that he or she is highly esteemed in your eyes."
How did you choose to show honor? What was the result? What are some other ways you could demonstrate honor in the coming days?
I chose to honor you by continuing to put my feelings aside of what is going on and just spend time with you today, to be around to take you down to the station since you need a ride, and to hug you and let you know I love you through my actions. You can never have too many hugs. The result is that again we chose not to argue but to try to compromise on meals and things to do for fun but also the way you hugged me back and held me longer than you normally do. I know deep down you do love me and want to work on things but it's just a matter of time. Time is what I have and willing to give to continue to try to figure all this out with you. Other ways I could demonstrate honor in the coming days...doing your laundry, making us dinner, making you cookies, ..just doing little things that help. Continuing to love you and show you that through the way I greet you. Make every moment with you count when you are with me :-)
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We did make every moment count Saturday. Spending the whole day with you was amazing! Talking finally about our most intimate feelings and having fun watching the movie The Hangover (hilarious), then watching episodes of The Muppet Show on your phone before bed was great too. Being having to have fun, laugh together, play together, work on things together and give each other hope & have forgiveness for each other is what we have needed for a long time. I'm happy that God is working in both our hearts and changing them to be willing instead of stubborn. I understand things a lot better with us since tonight.