Something changed this past week between C & me when we had dinner monday night and for the first time in over a month decided to share the same room. Tuesday I went and saw the local pastor and poured my heart out about what was going on in our lives. He was a great resource and very supportive. It helps when the pastor knows both of you. Tuesday night was a very bad night but somehow through all the bad things we finally heard each other. Wednesday was a day apart with me driving toward Seattle and coming to realize that the friend I had been struggling with over the past year I suddenly didn't have the same connection with but that I still cared for her. The day was beautifully sunny and the drive home went better than I expected as I had taken care of something he asked me to do and we talked the whole way home. C was cooking dinner for us when I came home and we had an amazing evening together. Last night we decided to share our room again and it ended up being a time to reconnect in an intimate way that rippled through us so deeply. I can not tell you enough how much I love and adore him. He makes me want to work on things and be a better person for it. Working on everything at a much slower intimate pace and being in a place in our lives where we no longer can run from our responsibilities is literally forcing us to grow up and together in ways I don't think anyone could have ever imagined. Our friends are seeing the changes in us for the better.
Tonight I'm watching a movie called
Fireproof. I'm looking forward to attending church this sunday for the first time in almost 4 years. It's the same church that I found out a few days ago he actually has been attending part time. Be good to be able to share that area of our lives together soon with each other.
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